Random writing from 2003?? Manifesting

I want to keep my eyes closed But then I could not see. What if one of those beats hits me? I can't be blind when it comes; I must analyze it. Thinking a little too hard. That's when the thoughts go too far. Strangely these moments are nice, can't always say that about life. Sadness always spreads too thick. Must be why I dwell in this moment.